Same situation with me? n still not getting over her as long as shes ur bestie?

im a girl. im in love with my bestie<22yrsold>. we r real close friends. but shes the first girl i've ever had feelings for. i'm 26, so it kinda freaked me out when i realized that i loved her, i was always in denial telling myself i loved her just as friend. shes straight, im now trying my best to get over her. but its really hard for me, even if i dont have a chance i wanna be her BBF, but as long as im still her bestie the feelings for her will never stop. ok, i've tried hard not to meet her so often, i'd meet her only when she contacts me now but it only kills me not seeing her, i dont expect she would call me coz shes kinda person who doesnt frequently call, pick up phone or call back, so do i. but if she did call me, i'd call back or pick up just to hear her voice. anyways, hardly can i hear from her, it might be a good way getting over her, she called me to help her review for the midterm so i slept over her place last monday till wednesay so obviously she doesnt call for no reason, but shes really nice n sweet girl. n i've been missing her so much since the day i left her house, im so in love with her. OMG i know u'd tell me to meet someone else, im not that motivated really.